Working to Keep My Sanity

"like nothing happened"



A small recording of a thought turned into a song.

Sometimes music and art are my only sanity. It seems ironic that most of the time they are what also drive me crazy. My incessant need to feel and then to numb the feelings is only superseded by the insatiable curiosity of why and how... its often what keeps me going when I don't think I can continue. Its the driving factor in what causes me to create.
  I've often wondered why a Minor chord sounds sad as opposed to a Major chord sounding happy. I understand and can grasp the theory behind it, but what has always baffled me is how one small change in tone can create such a schism between atmospheres and feelings. Isn't it funny how life can be the same way sometimes? How the structures and paradigms around us can become inverted by a single, simple change in value?
 
  The Russian novelist Berthold Auerbach said that "Music washes away from the soul the dust of everyday life." How apropos. This, I believe is how many musicians feel when they try to articulate complex emotions through a language that one cannot necessarily read or analyze, but rather must be immersed in to experience and truly understand.

Musical Articulation

  When I attempt to record music I have great ideas and meaning behind the music that I deliberately try to convey. However, the product of those ideas seem filtered by my musical vocabulary and the expressions that are most familiar to me. This is beyond frustrating sometimes. Sometimes the object of recording is to just record a piece to reinforce the routine and/or habit of doing so. Any skill that requires articulation and accuracy requires practice, and recording, much like music requires practice to raise the level of skill.
  This recording came together in about 2 1/2 hours from a few past ideas that seemed to work together.